One of the things that I’ve always struggled with is stepping away from the computer to live life.
Sounds really geeky, doesn’t it? But, what I really mean is I struggle with finding a balance between my creative aspirations and living the life I want to document through them. It’s just that a lot of them happen on the computer, for me- scrapbooking, blogging, and even photography. Sometimes it’s not even the computer- it might be art journaling. But, we all have some hobby or something that we can easily allow to take over our lives. Right? I hope I’m not the only one. It’s always a balance- I want to capture and document life, but to do that I have to live it too. It’s a crazy oxymoron of life that I think many creatives feel.
It gets so warped in should haves, need to, want to, well maybe. It often feels like it can be all or nothing. There’s guilt- guilt you aren’t getting anything accomplished, guilt when you don’t get to tell a story, guilt when you’re on the computer instead of spending time with folks, guilt for a messy home, guilt you’re not doing this or that. It’s definitely a challenge at times to do all the things that strike a chord with you. The truth is we can’t do it all.
It’s a struggle that I can feel the winds of change in. It’s time to untangle all of it. One of my goals right now is to simply engage in life more- to spend my evenings and weekends living rather than tucked away just trying to carve out some sort of creative time. I am so thankful God has given me this opportunity to try it a new way- to create during the day full time, at least for now.
This weekend I was able to go out to the deer lease and really just enjoy some time out there without thinking about how I was losing time that I could do something else. It was really right where I wanted to be- soaking in the sunshine and spending time with Cody. Saturday was the kind of weekend I want every weekend. A weekend to connect with life going on around me, to savor, and to live.